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week 11
done!!
in my mind i'm in the south of france. sitting in a hammock and writing this blog article. the wind is rustling all around me and leaves falling on my head. thinking about the fact that in 1 week it is actually finally summer break!! i see the ocean from my hammock and i could absolutely get used to this view.
it's a shame this is all in my imagination.

week 10
working on my final project
java script is the most confusing thing i've ever worked on. at least we had a small introduction now about what it is, why it's used and how i can work on it a bit more. i have the groundwork done for my website but i still need a lot of css to actually make it look like something. right now its literally just grey. i hope i can finish my project in time with out a lot of stress!

week 9
(added afterwards)
i sometimes wish i would hangout in karlsruhe more often. i feel like since i'm going home every weekend i miss alot. the problem is i haven't seen people outside of hfg which look even remotely cool. i love being with friends and if i'm at home i pack my weekend full with meets with all diferent people. but the biggest problem is: WHY IS SUMMER SEMESTER SO MUCH WORSE THEN WINTER SEMSTER. If only it would be the other way around there would be time to do things in summer. ugh i don't like school anyways. i'm a retired 65 year in my 20 year old body.

week 8
(added afterwards)
this one day project was super fun! doing arduino reminded me of nwt classes back in highschool which were always terrible but making the website was super fun. it's so fun to be able to make stuff i actually like even after i have fiished it here in hfg. a lot of times i just feel like i'm doing things for teachers but this project was so fun. i love making stuff which is kind of a joke but not really but it's still nothing serious.

week 7
(added afterwards)
i have never seen those vapes where you can do anything on it irl. it's so fascinating that if you put you're mind to it anything can becone anything. a disposable vape can become a server or god knows what and i can become anything i put my mind to or even more. i've listened to some inspiring storys about life and it all doesn't sound bad at all! let's see how far i can get with everything.

week 6
uhm some thoughts again
the last week i've been a bit down for no apperent reason. what has been occupying my mind is friendships i've had over a lot of years. it's so hard to describe the feeling of loosing certain friendships which have been with you for such a long period of time. especially when you think too much about them and how IF they were still your friend you could ask them about things on your mind. right now i'm having a few problems with all kinds of friends and drifting apart. the fact that one of my best friends is moving to california is so baffeling because it feels absolutely surreal. even with him, not seeing eachother all day every day has changed our dynamic. giggling around and snickering about anything changed to catching up over coffee and talking about what's new. by not texting at all we don't really talk when there is no hangout planed. on one hand it's so refreshing to not constantly have to talk to be close, but on the other hand it feels like a risk of not talking at all in the future.
it's so hard to even put the things i'm thinking about into words, because it's so many other things and also people which have been on my mind. writing sentences and making the words actually make sense is something i really try to improve.

week 5
stressing a bit
since i missed the last class i should find the time to work on everything else right? but the weather has been so nice and i've been having lots of migranes so i never feel like working. everything feels so overwhelming and i just need a holiday. i don't really understand why in uni we have a super long holiday after the semester and not at least one week off just for once while studying. desperatly in need of a break rn. sitting at the ocean, listening to some music, falling in and out of a nap, feeling the sun, catching a tan and listening to the boats passing. especially since a friend is in norway right now i'm missing sweden a lot. i should not complain since it's only so little time left anyway but yea. GIVE ME SUMMER BREAK

week 4
migranes migranes migranes
for the last two weeks i've been suffering and having lots of migranes. even in france i missed a whole day just because of that. the biggest problem with having migraines is having to deal with the fact that i can't see and it feels like my eyeball is falling off my brain. i hope it settles a bit because it's starting to get to an amount where maybe just maybe it's concerning.

week 3
thoughts
it's my birthday this week! since i'm already going home on tuesday it feels like a waste of time to go grocery shopping tbh. i'll just survive on literally the things i have at home which are nothing. adulting is hard. i never know what i want to eat so i spend hours in the supermarket not knowing what i want to buy or what i even want to eat. i know that's not how i'm supposed to adult but i don't really have the hang for it yet. right now it's pooring and i'm a bit late with writing my article but i don't think it' that big of a deal. i really hope the weather forecast changes for this week and also the coming week for going to lyon!

my website is a.....
my website is a stickerbook. even if you have the same page adding different stickers change the outcome of said page. you can exchange some with friends or even add stickers you have found on the way. all these layers of stickers you put have a meaning. if you didn't really like one, peel it off!
my website is a frozen yoghurt. a fun version of ice cream! mix and match size, flavor and even toppings to personalize it to your liking.
my website is my apartment. slowly but surely it's turning into something of my liking. getting furniture is a long process of deciding what i want, where i can get it and carrying all the way to this place. it's taking a bit of time to adjust to, since it's a new enviroment i'm in and also because i haven't completely figured out where i want to put what.

week 2
under construction
i'm still struggling a bit to understand the whole concept and making process of this whole website thing. it's nothing to worry about since it's a work in progress, but sometimes it feels like i'm working a tiny bit to slow. the most fun part about this process is to learn stuff and knowing when and where to implement it. if you are patient enough this blog will also become more of a blog looking blog. truuuuuuust me!

week 1
rest 4ever
today I really wanna talk about the AMAZINGNESS of just doing nothing. It's soooooooo fun right? Sometimes I just lay in the grass (with a blanket ofc )and just think. My biggest problem is not being able to think because if i do... I'm fast asleep after 5min for sure. But just enjoying the sun is the best feeling ever!!! Sometimes I feel guilty for being able to just lay around. oops